RADIATION FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RADIATION done, finished out of my bald head!! Gave me a "Purple Heart Award" and a card signed by all the doctors, radiologists. wow!!!!! and two free passes to their health spa!!..SHARON and John just stopped by with their dog Rory..and some Chicago polish rye bread..yum..and a virgin Mary picture and charm..shes all around me..and the gardener gave me two of those big old Virgin Mary candles that I'm burning..I look like Frida Kahlo in bed right now..start on mega vitamins tomorrow for my new program..so it begins..but as far as I am concerned...its already gone...more later!

BELLATRIX/LYNN

BELLATRIX..aka Lynn, my only cousin in New Jersey, from my other side of my family I have come to know..she has a daughter Amanda lots of cats and a husband, MIke..she looks a lot like me, and hope to meet her in person soon..she has enlightened me on the dysfunctional family my Mother married into and got out of which saved mine and hers, plus family health history..of breast cancer killing the women..she is cheerful..upbeat, and a riot..so much energy
ALSO,,soon I will have pictures of me as soon as Sharon comes back from Chicago my Kodak Easy share camera has a problem..and I want to share photos of girfriends, Fred and me.I think!
Another thing..I dont want to be the "Blog hog" so post stuff of your own..its not all about cousin Carol! OK!! and thanks Phyllis June for the comments too..

Dr. Wagner is off to Peru today to do his humanitarian work for a month but will be in touch by the blog..love you all..later

TODAY

RADIATION..tomorrow last day..yeah!Had a hour and a half psychology session at the Holistic clinic..and did a little meditating..and he explained the program a lot more to me..and how forms of stress bring cancer on..just came to the realization that I am in the most advanced stage u can get..hello!! ..well..bring it on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I TAKE IT ON!! Had a pedi and manicure at ha ha Walmart..today..being frugal..makes me feel so good..then after ran over to the fish market and bought a lobster tail, scallops. collsal shrimp, and Ahi tuna..got home cooked jasmine rice....sauteed the rest in white wine, onions and peppers, garlic...basil olive oil..and served it on the bed of rice,,I know when I am off the steriods..I will be sane with food again..cuz I am eating rye bread, butter and cream cheese, and yogurt every morning and sharing the crust with Fred..now I am eating "good and plenty's" while I am blogging, I could eat a bowl..Mom and I are the licorice queens.....ok nite everyone!!

GOOD MORNING FAMILYAND FRIENDS!!

OK, this morning I feel energetic..and in good spirits, and yet made another decision..i am stopping the radiation, yesterday was my last treatment. period..end of story..too many frankenstein things happening to my immune system..getting in my pick up my arm, over my heart monday..and another xray for the new treatment.then START 'boot camp" on tuesday am..for 6hrs, a day for almost a month..I am anxious to get this cootie be rid of, process going asap..they also have counseling there and a big part of it..I feel human and loved there..I am eating good..and doing the juice boogie..but right now I am being BAD..rye toast, butter, cream cheese and blueberry jam! ha! talk later...

THURSDAY AM

Up and at um...had a really good nites sleep last night! yea! Good attitude this morning, Thrush in my throat getting much better, have a swish and spit system going 4 times a day...ha (and no tongue kisses anyone, not even Fred!)ha..gross..but works..would someone please, keep Mom posted and read everyday about what I post here...it's an assignment for one of you, let me know who it is so I can beat them up if they don'T?..thanks..wish she had a laptop or email..but we talk constantly...she is home and in her comfort zone and that gives me peace and happiness..so Don is off to LAX for about 5 days, his son in law is going to be a newly inducted submarine Admiral in the Navy..he needs the escape..but I have lots of people around to take care of me etc..Kay the juice queen..Polly, Sharon, Marcy will be here saturday afternoon for awhile and Mary will stay sat night, and Don back sunday and go get Fido Fred back here..more later..Oh Mary my cuz and Eva..thanks for the comments, don't stop!

9 DAYS AND COUNTING RADIATION

OK, startrek over this am...SHARON took me to it..and stayed with me last night..Kay my "juicing" neighbor came over for dinner last night..as Polly brought over a pile of home made potato salad, and baked beans, made a healthy salad and nathans hot dogs..we pigged out! I am on steriods so it all goes down..I have been craving food I have never eaten..bad bald girl! Don helped us eat,,he has been a saint,,real love baby..when the chips are down..he's a jewel right now and I am sure will always be..I am blessed with my family and freinds I can't say that enough times too them..Justin calls me every night and Sara is in touch constantly..it's exceptional...makes my heart sing! Now Sharon is helping me organize ny closet and doing laundry and we just stopped at Jamba Juice for a healthy immune smoothie! and a new movie for me tonight..and Her husband just came and got Fred until the weekend at their house on Mt Rose highway..where he can run with the rabbits,,and be free...I feel at peace with this right now he is an active dog..and needs the exercise..as he is still a pup...so..I watch the food channel, and home channel all day..besides doing things here and there..I must get organized...one day at a time...for my new cootie free life..more later..

POGONIP..pix I took Christmas day 05

MY JOURNEY,
My heart begins with this tree, it's the way I feel right now, like the frozen branches in the fog waiting for the sun to cast its early rays and take out all of the things that make it stiff and crystal.
This is how I begin with my battle until I rid myself of this poison in my body, and you will all be able to accompany me on the way if you choose to read the blog; feel free to comment, I would like that very much, and it will help me, as well as prayers and ka bookie dances or whatever you do to drive out evil. I was diagnosed with stage four breast cancer 2 weeks ago, and sadly it went into my brain..it has metastasized.into lesions..so cannot be surgically removed..so I have to be radiated..like in a star trek waiting room, for the next 12 days now, it was 15..then on Aug 13th -SIX MONTHS of Chemo...Justin shaved my head yesterday, and I am happy, as I was already starting to loose my hair and I hated that! I am into scarfs and baseball caps...and look like (cannot spell) Shinade O'Connor, but cuter! send me a scarf.. haha...ok tired now..will try and write every chance I get, and let you be the fly on the wall...need good vibes and lots and lots of uplifting support which goes unsaid for my beloved family and friends..I WILL BEAT this, because I am strong and have an awesome attitude.I promise you all that!