RADIATION FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RADIATION done, finished out of my bald head!! Gave me a "Purple Heart Award" and a card signed by all the doctors, radiologists. wow!!!!! and two free passes to their health spa!!..SHARON and John just stopped by with their dog Rory..and some Chicago polish rye bread..yum..and a virgin Mary picture and charm..shes all around me..and the gardener gave me two of those big old Virgin Mary candles that I'm burning..I look like Frida Kahlo in bed right now..start on mega vitamins tomorrow for my new program..so it begins..but as far as I am concerned...its already gone...more later!

BELLATRIX/LYNN

BELLATRIX..aka Lynn, my only cousin in New Jersey, from my other side of my family I have come to know..she has a daughter Amanda lots of cats and a husband, MIke..she looks a lot like me, and hope to meet her in person soon..she has enlightened me on the dysfunctional family my Mother married into and got out of which saved mine and hers, plus family health history..of breast cancer killing the women..she is cheerful..upbeat, and a riot..so much energy
ALSO,,soon I will have pictures of me as soon as Sharon comes back from Chicago my Kodak Easy share camera has a problem..and I want to share photos of girfriends, Fred and me.I think!
Another thing..I dont want to be the "Blog hog" so post stuff of your own..its not all about cousin Carol! OK!! and thanks Phyllis June for the comments too..

Dr. Wagner is off to Peru today to do his humanitarian work for a month but will be in touch by the blog..love you all..later

TODAY

RADIATION..tomorrow last day..yeah!Had a hour and a half psychology session at the Holistic clinic..and did a little meditating..and he explained the program a lot more to me..and how forms of stress bring cancer on..just came to the realization that I am in the most advanced stage u can get..hello!! ..well..bring it on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I TAKE IT ON!! Had a pedi and manicure at ha ha Walmart..today..being frugal..makes me feel so good..then after ran over to the fish market and bought a lobster tail, scallops. collsal shrimp, and Ahi tuna..got home cooked jasmine rice....sauteed the rest in white wine, onions and peppers, garlic...basil olive oil..and served it on the bed of rice,,I know when I am off the steriods..I will be sane with food again..cuz I am eating rye bread, butter and cream cheese, and yogurt every morning and sharing the crust with Fred..now I am eating "good and plenty's" while I am blogging, I could eat a bowl..Mom and I are the licorice queens.....ok nite everyone!!

OVER

OVER,and done...my cornea was flat..and he dilated my eye to see if we could proceed with laser..and we went to the chair and started the procedure//while holding Mary's hand. I was perfectly still and did not want to screw it up as he said if it did not work we might have to freeze it after all and I was freaking about that..it was intense pressure but not as bad as I envisioned..and he was very gentle..and would keep informing of what to expect..then at 80 percent I was almost done then laid down to get the last 20percent finished..and said FINALLY it was done, clear and repaired and I felt a sweep of elation over my body and mind..he will see me at 8am to check on me in the morning..so now Polly and I are watching the jewelry channel.. haha.and she is reheating me some petrale sole from last night..and very happy right now..by the way TO LET EVERYONE KNOW I WILL BE STARTING HOLISTIC TREATMENT ON AUGUST 7TH OFFICIALLY..AFTER my radiation is completed..on this coming thursday..NEVER EVER TO HAVE TRADITIONAL CHEMO IN MY LIFE FROM THIS DAY FORWARD..THANKS MY FAMILY..THANKS DR. HARDEEP..you lovely man..

down the shitter

Yesterday started out as a good morning, but ended up being an exhausting, eventful day. I called my radiologist and left a message letting her know that I had decided to stop the radiation treatments. She returned my call within one minute because I also decided to stop taking the steroids. She immediately said to me, you MUST continue the radiation and the steroids or you could have a stroke or a seizure because of not completing the treatment. So she agreed to shorten the treatment by three days. I went and had my treatment yesterday as a result of the new information.
Back at home I found that I could not see out of my right eye at all. I started freaking out so I called Polly who had taken me in the morning and she rushed me to the emergency room at Reno Hospital. This was all about 2pm in the afternoon.
I was there for three hours for tests and found that I have a badly detached retina. They operated on it yesterday at. They stuck a needle in my eye and then Kay took me home.
I had to sit up all night to sleep so that it wouldn't detach more. This morning at 10am I will be going back in for the final part of the operation to and I am scared shitless, but I will be able to resume the blog after this is corrected. There will be 5 days of recovery and then I should be fine but I'm going through HELL. Thank you Leslie for writing this for me. Love to all.

THANKS ELLEN!

Thanks, ELLEN, she will read the blog to Mom..everyday..yea!! Ok. now that I am experiencing traditional radiation I see and feel the side effects..and this has absolutely convinced me that the alternative is the ONLY way to go..I have had and have thrush, yeast infection..sore kidneys..no energy..sweat like hell, and a new clear bubble in my right eye..I wake up everyday to a new thing..geez..anxoius to start the Boot Camp...NOW..just had a nice beet. kale..veggie juice drink..eeek....strange and weird...like drinking a cardboard smoothie..haha..Polly will be back later to make salmon and asparagas..yummy! and stay over...maybe I will write later...

9 DAYS AND COUNTING RADIATION

OK, startrek over this am...SHARON took me to it..and stayed with me last night..Kay my "juicing" neighbor came over for dinner last night..as Polly brought over a pile of home made potato salad, and baked beans, made a healthy salad and nathans hot dogs..we pigged out! I am on steriods so it all goes down..I have been craving food I have never eaten..bad bald girl! Don helped us eat,,he has been a saint,,real love baby..when the chips are down..he's a jewel right now and I am sure will always be..I am blessed with my family and freinds I can't say that enough times too them..Justin calls me every night and Sara is in touch constantly..it's exceptional...makes my heart sing! Now Sharon is helping me organize ny closet and doing laundry and we just stopped at Jamba Juice for a healthy immune smoothie! and a new movie for me tonight..and Her husband just came and got Fred until the weekend at their house on Mt Rose highway..where he can run with the rabbits,,and be free...I feel at peace with this right now he is an active dog..and needs the exercise..as he is still a pup...so..I watch the food channel, and home channel all day..besides doing things here and there..I must get organized...one day at a time...for my new cootie free life..more later..

Well today has been an interesting one..some good, some not so good. I hope someone besides Leslie and Lois and the kids are reading this! Ha!..lets get some comments going, I need this guys, a lot! Ya want to see a bald girl cry...I can't even cry in my beer anymore! geez...called my regular doc in Florida today..not good he flipped out at the mere mention of any other treatment than regular traditional chemo...really got going..like a bunch of killers..ok that was wonderful to hear...like "hang um at the pass" ok then after talking to my radiation lady, she said..'do what ya have to for yourself 'will not abandon me..my internist here wants to hear more and to see me, she is also a Hospice, I guess that is how u spell it,,doc and very caring.....I want to live to see u all again and not feel dragged down and sick that is my goal..of course to be Cootie free..of the litte buggars..screw them..ok..Sharon will be over tonight with "Tootsie" liked it want to laugh tonight....love u all my dear family..help me fight this please...

progress

I have made a decision on my treatment as of yesterday, and its alternative medicine..with renointegrative.com check it out. I have compared regular conventional treatment of highly poisonous toxins that invade your cells and kill your entire immune system in the process and then you. I have obligated myslef to the shitty radiation treatments that I am geeting until around the 7th of Aug..but want the brain lesions shrunk..and then hop right over to "boot camp" as they call it for an intense 6hr 3 or 4 week chemo program there which they do...I am at peace with this and feel more human and not an FDA victim..and if u all want to really survive in this world get the book The PH Miracle it will save your life..Hannah, Eli..I loved your words, and I love u both..Leslie..u already know...

POGONIP..pix I took Christmas day 05

MY JOURNEY,
My heart begins with this tree, it's the way I feel right now, like the frozen branches in the fog waiting for the sun to cast its early rays and take out all of the things that make it stiff and crystal.
This is how I begin with my battle until I rid myself of this poison in my body, and you will all be able to accompany me on the way if you choose to read the blog; feel free to comment, I would like that very much, and it will help me, as well as prayers and ka bookie dances or whatever you do to drive out evil. I was diagnosed with stage four breast cancer 2 weeks ago, and sadly it went into my brain..it has metastasized.into lesions..so cannot be surgically removed..so I have to be radiated..like in a star trek waiting room, for the next 12 days now, it was 15..then on Aug 13th -SIX MONTHS of Chemo...Justin shaved my head yesterday, and I am happy, as I was already starting to loose my hair and I hated that! I am into scarfs and baseball caps...and look like (cannot spell) Shinade O'Connor, but cuter! send me a scarf.. haha...ok tired now..will try and write every chance I get, and let you be the fly on the wall...need good vibes and lots and lots of uplifting support which goes unsaid for my beloved family and friends..I WILL BEAT this, because I am strong and have an awesome attitude.I promise you all that!