Thursday, August 09, 2007

EXHAUSTED and in lots of pain

Using Leslie's account again..I am so sick of this shit 24/7 ..the horrific pain I am experiencing in the back of my legs and down my back spine..its ongoing and makes me drained it took me 20 minutes just to do this dam blog! I FELT like a 747 airplane with a pit crew around me all day at the clinic..heating pad on my kidneys ...one on the botttom of my shins..all hooked up with tubes..treatments..peeing with my attachmentr call him chewbaca..so I am trying to knit scarfs for the staff..etc..but when the stuff in the tube hits, I shake..ughhhh!! got to snack constantly..or u throw up..have sores on my butt..now and was told to get in a soaking tub with baking soda..butt. haha..can't get out of the tub..once I get in..and tried my new hammock yesterday afternoon fell into it like a sack of potatoes..Don couldn't get me out had to fall on the floor..and crawl to the fireplace stoop..when he was able to get me up and into bed..so now Don will come and rub me down again..and have a call to the doctor for more pain meds..cuz I am eating vicodin like cotton candy does not help at all..how can people live in constant pain..as I feel like my Dad..I guess he was such a trooper..hope I have a better report tomorrow..love u all..my dear family and friends

5 comments:

Ellen said...

Carol,

So, so sorry to hear of the hell you are going through.

Thank you for being such a trooper to write on the blog tonight.

Looking forward to better times. All prayers and positive thoughts are with you.

Love,
Ellen

Leslie Victoria-Leland said...

oh sweetie,
Praying for your strength and comfort and thinking of you constantly, as are all of us.

We all wish we could take some of this pain from you and feel it for you- love you.

Like Ellen, so glad you wrote.
love, leslie

Anonymous said...

This blog is breaking my heart, but i am so glad that you are able to share a glimpse of your daily trials... I am praying for better times ahead for you and envisioning you as your fabulous self sipping cocktails and laughing... thats what you are meant to be doing and will be again soon!
Love,
Liz

Anonymous said...

"The rewards for those who persevere far exceed the pain that must precede the victory"
- Engstrom

EVA said...

It hurts me to know that you are in pain...the Carol I know is vibrant and healthy! Soon you will be feeling great again, just have to push through this painful bullshit to get to the beautiful moments we all know are waiting to share with you again....

Tons of love,
Eva